Don't Underestimate My...

...Conduct towards others

If you need food, I got you. Money? I'll give what I can. Someone to talk to? I'll be there. Being good to others is my default setting. But just like anything that has a default setting, alternatives are possible. People talk a lot about cutting people off, and I totally understand. For me, when a person's presence physically drains me, I know that they are not good to be around. I choose to be nice, but when I decide that someone isn't worth the trouble they cause, then I'm not very nice anymore. My well-being comes before all else.

By no means am I stupid, but sometimes my intelligence is genuinely tested. If I joke about not being able to count or something obviously untrue, it's not an invitation to join in. If I don't respond, it's because I choose to exercise self-control; not everything dictates a response. Related side note: Just because my major isn't a hard science, it doesn't mean that my fellow Scrippas and I do not meet many challenges. Your major may be important, but mine will lead me to careers that literally affect the way the world thinks. Just saying. And yes, I do have to go to graduate school.


The picture next to this paragraph pretty much sums up my feelings, but I want to go a little deeper. I am a very passionate person, and when I believe in something or someone, it is unwavering. Now imagine my faith in God? Exactly. I will never pretend to know the Bible front to back, and I haven't gone to church all semester. Honestly, none of that matters. I have a relationship with God that doesn't require the input of other people.

...Personal experiences

To most people, even those closest to me, I seem like a lighthearted person. To a certain extent, I'm that way for other people. I don't mind providing some comic relief to tough situations or being a little ray of sunshine! It's only when I'm not taken seriously that I have a problem. I've gone through too much and seen too many things to not receive the same respect that I give to others. There's a lot more going on in my mind than I let on, but that's because it's honestly nobody else's business. There are some parts of me that nobody knows, which is the way I like it. Just don't minimize me or my experiences. 

...Quality of education

In my opinion, this is one of the most disrespectful things that a person can do. (In fact, the more I think about it, the more I think that this deserves its own blog post.) Schools like Howard, Morehouse, Tennessee State, and countless others have served as think tanks for activists, artists, and scientists. To diminish the power of an HBCU degree is to undermine why they were founded in the first place. 

I wrote all of this for two reasons: First, I've had these feelings for a long time, and now that I've had a few days away from classes, my mind has had a chance to process my feelings. Second, I think a lot of people can understand where I'm coming from. It seems like someone tries me every day, and I'm sure I'm not the only one.

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